recently, i celebrated a birthday and my father
-1st problem: i am the only child..its not like he has to remember other birthdays because he doesn't.
-2nd problem: its not like he never has called or like he hasn't been in my life because he has. [i get dinner, gas, and most of my electronics came from him, but i guess this year slipped his mind. i wondered if maybe he didn't call was because of how old i'm getting, then realized it doesn't matter because i'm his daughter.]
-3rd problem: i don't expect him to ever say it..it is now over a month & i have yet to hear "happy birthday" from my father. & whats crazy is today was his birthday. i called , he tried to hold a serious convo with me, he even said he thought that I, [as in me], was going to forget his birthday. yeah, you thought that because you forgot mine! stupid! i wasn't going to call but my friends said i should, but now i regret it.
i said all this to say as we grow and start to grow and experience life, i believe it is extremely important to be responsible. i believe if someone has a child, they should always think about what is best for them. when i have children, if i am blessed to have any, i will be the best parent & i will make sure they feel love and support from both parents. it is not fair for children to question the love of a parent. unfortunately this is the reality of our world today.
advice for the new generation of parents: love your children unconditionally. never have them question how much you love them...it is the worst feeling imaginable.
night
love, the unwanted
