year 3 :)

its my 3rd year in college & time is really flying by. i find myself changing day by day. my spidey senses are tapping in so the super scholar in me is starting to shine again. although school is the most important thing in my life right now, my personal life is taking a turn for the better. it is true that time heals all. it all started freshman year. i made so many great friends and built great relationships, but as time passed on, many of the people i called "friends" began to show their true colors. for me, having friends is serious. i dont like many people or trust them either so for me to call you my friend means more than anyone can know. during my sophomore year, many of my friends traveled on different paths toward their personal goals. i was proud and still am very proud of all of them, but i quickly realized that some of the people i once knew were gone, lost, and forgotten. i also realized that while my friends "found themselves", they lost people in their lives who once meant everything. the pain that came from these discoveries cut deep, sharper than any knife. i found myself questioning if we were really friends or if the friendships i made were make believe. i separated myself from many people because the pain was so intense. however, soon i began to realize that maybe it wasn't them changing that scared me. it was the fact that i was afraid of them not caring about me anymore. selfish, yes i know but i really love and value my friends. so the feeling that we were growing apart frightened me. now that i am in my junior year, i have realized that sometimes friends don't talk for periods of time and sometimes they don't get along but TRUE FRIENDS LAST NO MATTER WHAT. even though i thought my friends and i were growing apart, now i know that many of them had to get their lives together and accomplish some things & i have to say i am proud of them. although all relationships aren't as strong as they once were, the bonds that we share can never be replaced. even though we are growing older, my only wish is that after this collegiate journey is over, we will continue to be FRIENDS FOREVER but only time will tell....

love,
me